sometimes…
originally published on July 22, 209 at writingwhilewhite.wordpress.com
sometimes i can only work in brief (or even miniscule) spurts before i have to walk away…
sometimes i want to run away again…
sometimes i want to disappear…
sometimes i hate the parts of me that are your worst traits…
sometimes i remind myself we are all doing our best every moment…
sometimes i take in a slow breath and realize my shoulders are up around my ears…
sometimes i ask myself if this/that choice is because of an addiction to…
sometimes i remember how much i love you…
sometimes i allow myself to feel the pain…
sometimes i spend/smoke/drink/eat/binge too much instead…
sometimes i am better at being gentle with myself…
sometimes i am better at being gentle with you…
sometimes i really fuck up…
sometimes i get it right.
sometimes i wake up smiling…
sometimes i root in deeper…
sometimes i don’t fight the current…
sometimes i stop dragging my feet…
sometimes i listen closely…
sometimes i act in big ways…
sometimes i remind myself to soften…
sometimes i sit in my shit…
sometimes i stand…
sometimes i move forward.
sometimes i look back…
sometimes i cry/shake my head/roll my eyes/yell/scream/laugh…
sometimes i dance it out.
sometimes i feel lost/adrift/alone/confused/disconnected…
sometimes i feel sad/angry/furious/despondent/something…
sometimes i feel content/joyous/hopeful/bouyant/certain…
sometimes i feel.
sometimes i escape… or try to…
sometimes i remember respite is necessary…
sometimes i lay down guilt/fear/shame…
sometimes i pick up ease/worthy/divine…
sometimes i pray… to Mary/Buddha/Jesus/God/Goddess/Mother Earth…
sometimes i sing along…
sometimes i stretch body/mind/soul…
sometimes i create… for me/you/all of us…
sometimes i share.
sometimes i eat all my vegetables…
sometimes i only want to see you smile…
sometimes i touch/teach/garden/plan/scheme/paint/coordinate…
sometimes i merely amuse… in all the ways…
sometimes i inspire…
sometimes i desire.
sometimes i shine a light…
sometimes i let yours glow bright…
sometimes we dance together…
sometimes we swim apart…
sometimes we love in action.
originally published on July 22, 2019 at writingwhilewhite.wordpress.com